I am seeking advice regarding a situation that has left me feeling scared and unsure of what to do next. I have been diagnosed with harm OCD, which causes my brain to convince me that I am a monster, even though I know I am not. During a recent anxiety episode, I spoke to my therapist about how I felt like I had snapped at my baby and hurt him. However, this was not the case. I had become overwhelmed during a heated conversation with a family member and had set my baby down abruptly while he was fussing. I muttered under my breath, "I don't know what the f*** you want or what to do right now." I then removed myself from the situation to try and regulate my emotions.
Despite reassurances from others in the room that I had not snapped at my baby, I still reached out to my therapist about my concerns. Unfortunately, my therapist threatened to report me for child abuse. This has left me feeling even more anxious and scared. I explained that my anxiety had caused me to worry about something that wasn't a big deal, but my therapist was not convinced and accused me of making excuses.
I live in Georgia and am unsure of what to do next. I am already dealing with other legal issues, and I am worried that this situation will make things worse. I love my child and would never intentionally harm him. I just need help managing my anxiety and finding a therapist who is better equipped to handle my specific mental health needs. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.